He Reached Down is a spiritual memoir of collapse and quiet resurrection—told not in triumph, but in surrender. It follows one man’s journey from performance-based faith and vocational ambition into addiction, ego death, and the slow rediscovery of grace. The story unfolds in eight parts, each tracing a movement deeper into the mystery of being found rather than fixed, being loved rather than deserving, and being called even after failure.

The memoir opens with a sincere and formative call to ordained ministry—an experience of divine closeness that is soon buried beneath details of ego, striving, and eventual moral failure. At his lowest point, the narrator loses not just reputation but direction, collapsing under the weight of secrets and shame. Yet even in these darkest days, small signs of grace begin to stir.

Through recovery, marriage, and return to Church, the memoir charts a slow ascent—marked not by control, but by letting go. As the narrator begins to rediscover spiritual rhythm through silence, liturgy, and humility, he also enters formal diaconal discernment, engaging questions of identity and purpose. Formation does not resolve the inner fracture—it exposes it. The fire burns away false self, and the striving for the once-cherished collar begins to fade.

The final chapters walk through stillness, trust, and unknowing. The calling remains, but the narrator no longer demands to know what it must look like. The final act—trusting that Christ’s path is the Way he must follow—is not a moment of glory, but a quiet act of release. The book ends not with an answer, but with a prayer. Through collapse, stripping, and silence, He Reached Down bears witness to the God who meets us not in ascent, but in descent—and who reaches down, still.